Hamster on a wheel

When people find out I'm the mother of twins, they often ask, "How do you do it"?

My answer is usually the same.  "Oh, it can be challenging but it's worth it". And then I walk away and say under breath, "I don't know".

The truth is, there are many days when I feel like I don't do it.  There are days when I feel like a boss, a wife, a mother, a maid, a chauffeur, a chef, a teacher, etc., etc.

There are days when I don't know if I'm coming or going.  And my memory?   Oh sweet Jesus, my memory. 

I feel like a hamster on a wheel.  I keep running and running but I'm not really getting anywhere.

I clean the house and it's trashed within an hour.
I do the laundry and the basket is full by the next day.
I cook dinner, only to be followed by rejections and requests for something else.

When I look back at my posts when the twins were 3-4 months old, I ask myself, "How did you do it"?  And to be honest, it's all a blur. 

It was cycles of pumping, bottles, diaper changes and sleeping.  I remember thinking that I was living my life in 3 hour increments, just trying to get through the day.

Twins at age 2 has it's own set of challenges, there's no doubt about it.  The demands of me physically have diminished and now it's a mental challenge.

The temper tantrums, the independence, the fighting, the sibling rivalry, the quest to be "first". 

Yes, it can be enough to make any one crazy.

But, we ARE doing it.  We brought these 2 wonderful little kids into this world and we will be the best parents we can be.

And, maybe, just maybe.  This hamster will get somewhere some day.