Tuesday, May 29, 2012

It Never Gets Easy

The twins started at their new daycare this morning.  For the last 2 weeks, I've been trying to explain they'll be going to a new school with new friends and new teachers but I don't think they really understood.

Until this morning.

With our new schedule, Daddy will be doing drop off in the mornings but I went this morning to help with the transition. I actually took vacation this week so we could transition easily by doing some half days. 

The kids were excited at first.  We had been in the school twice before for the Open House and to drop off paperwork.  Each time, we only stayed for about an hour.  When we arrived this morning, we took the kids to the main Beginner's classroom and within a few minutes, they were playing along side the other children.  Both of them kept looking up to make sure we were still there but at least they weren't clinging to our legs.

Maybe this won't be so bad?

Daddy left to come back home so he could get ready for work and I stayed to wait for the principal to arrive so we could finalize the rest of the paperwork and so I could turn in my $1350 check.  OUCH!

After we had been there for about 45 minutes, I think Christopher started to understand we weren't leaving.  He walked over to me with tears in his eyes and said, "Mommy, I want to go home now". 

Talk about ripping my heart out.  I felt horrible.

The principal finally arrived and she "encouraged" me that it was time for me to say goodbye.  I walked out of the room with both kids crying hysterically.

And, then I started crying.  It was like they are entering daycare for the first time all over again.  I just wanted to hold them and make it better but I knew I had to leave. 

Today, they will only do a half day and I'll pick them up in a few hours around noon.  I think we'll play tomorrow by ear.  I think I'll call around noon to see how they are doing.  If they are doing OK, I will probably let them stay a full day.  If not, we'll do another half day.  But, they will definitely do full days on Thursday and Friday.

And, beginning Thursday and Friday, Daddy will be doing drop off by himself so I won't have to feel that guilt.   And, so I won't have to start each day in tears.  LOL!

1 comment:

Wendy said...

Sorry it was such a hard morning. Hope it gets better each day. I'm sure it will as they get used to the routine and their new friends and teachers.