Goodbye My Sweet Kisa

We said goodbye to my sweet Kisa today.  She was diagnosed with liver failure 18 months ago.  The doctor told us we'd probably have another 2 years with her so I'm thankful we had the amount of time we did. 

Kisa was the first pet my DH and I purchased together 14 years ago.  She was my baby.  My first child.  If I wasn't in bed at 10:00 pm, she would come downstairs and yell at me.  She would sit on the bathroom sink and wait for me to wash my face.  She loved to play and cuddle.  When she was a kitten, she would sleep on my chest, just under my chin.  She slept with me every night until a few months ago when it became too difficult to jump in the bed. 

I knew this day would come but you're never prepared.  I've been trying to mentally prepare since we knew the estimated timeframe but it's not any easier. 

Christopher is/was really attached to her.  The kids know she was sick.  We told them we were taking her to the doctor this afternoon but we haven't had the "conversation" with them.  I don't know how I'm going to keep myself together to say that she's not coming home.  I'm a mess already and the kids keep wondering why I've been crying all day. 

Rest in peace, baby.