The kids & I were watching Ice Age: Continental Drift and it occured to me. Have you seen the movie?
Remember the scenes where the mom and Peaches hang upside down from the tree to sleep?
That's pretty much how my life has felt. Everything is all topsy turvy and upside down. There have been more developments since my last post.
My husband quit his job.
I mentioned he was worried about the company doing layoffs and he felt fairly confident that something would happen by April. They aren't writing any new contracts and the current ones all expire in April. So, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out next steps.
He has had his resume posted since last summer but the job market is still slow (sucks ass) and he hasn't gotten a lot of calls. About 2 weeks ago, he told me he got a call from a recruiter who was looking to fill a 6-month contract. It requires travel and there's no guarantee there will be a full-time position at the end of the 6 months.
He decided to take it.
I still have MAJOR reservations about the whole thing because it's just out of my comfort zone. I'm not a risk taker. I like order and certainty and security.
He'll be travelling to St. Louis and Albuquerque every other week (home one week, travelling one week, home one week, etc).
I'm not crazy about that part of it but it's manageable. He would fly out on Monday mornings and fly home on Friday evenings. I'll have to adjust our morning routine so I can start doing drop offs but other than that, the evening routine was mostly me anyway.
I AM worried about how the kids will react. I don't think Kendall will care much but I can see Christopher acting out.
There is a silver lining. He'll be making significantly more money for that 6 months. It should equate to an additional $2,000 per month so we'll be able to rebuild our savings account (which is still suffering from the cost of IVF).
Ah, infertility. The gift that keeps on giving.
I am really trying to release my anxiety and worry and trust HIM but it's hard. I'm a worrier. It's just how I'm programmed.
And, I'm a novice when it comes to rewriting program code.
I keep telling myself that I just have to believe that everything will be OK. It will all work out.
Right?!
3 comments:
Savings? What's that?
I know what you mean about infertility being the gift that keeps on giving. I feel like the pretty frequently (ie. our savings and wanting to save up for another adoption.)
Congrats to your husband and the new job. I can understand your reservations, but I hope it works out. At least it will help you build your savings back up - that's a huge plus and definitely takes some of the stress off. I know my parents' neighbor has a job like that where he is out of town during the week. They're making it work as best they can.
Hugs. Hope it gets easier.
If ever there was a survivor its you. This is just a turn and twist that feels awful but is totally under your control. Your husband has made a very smart decision!
Sending you calming and car repair vibes.
On the upside, it is just a 6 month adjustment and it will hopefully give you all time to see what the next steps can/should be. Hopefully it will provide some clarity to your family about what direction you should go in. I'm sure it will be hard dealing with him being away. I know you had family recently move away, but do you have some good friends in the area you can call on if things get too difficult? Even just to give you a little time out?
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