Moving Along...

We're moving along with our first IVF cycle. Meds have been received (after a very painful $3,400 bill) and I had my mock embryo transfer earlier this week. Doctor said my lining is smooth and my ovaries look good - she doesn't anticipate any problems during the real transfer. Finally, some good news. I'm starting to think to myself that maybe, just maybe, the first cycle will work?

I, like many other women struggling with infertility, had a difficult time dealing with Mother's Day. As I mentioned earlier, my sister is 9 months pregnant and due within the next 2 weeks. I'm totally supportive of her and can't wait to meet my new niece but I'd be lying if I didn't admit that a part of me is so damn jealous. If my pregnancy wasn't ectopic, I'd be right there with her. To make matters worse, my mother can't stop gushing over her. My sister is the baby of the family and for some reason, that comes with its own set of unwritten free passes (why is that?). As a middle child, I have learned to accept that. But, you'd think my mom would have enough sense to think how all of that gushing affects me. Because you know, it IS all about me. So, a day to celebrate MY mom turned in to a day of celebrating the FUTURE mom and it sucked.

I know, I know. You weren't invited to this pity party. I am thankful that I have my health and that we had the means to proceed with IVF. I would never be able to say anything to my mom because I really don't think she is even aware. So, thanks for letting me vent.