Next Verse Same As The First

Well, my husband is now officially unemployed.  Again.

His contract ended yesterday.  We knew the end was near but frankly, I was expecting more than 48 hours notice. 

Apparently, all's fair in the world of love and contract work.

He has some interviews set up next week with some recruiters but as of right now, we have no job prospects on the horizon.

I'm scared.  We have absolutely nothing in savings right now.  Over the last 4 months, we've spent almost $6,000 on both of our cars just to keep them running.  We're depleted.

I make a decent salary but not enough to sustain the household.  I'm a BIG TIME planner and not knowing when he'll find a job is absolutely stressing me out.   I have a spreadsheet where I track our bills and I've created a tab called "Worst Case".

It's not pretty.

I do have a solution though.  I'm just going to stay drunk this weekend and then I'll remain oblivious to everything.

Not a solid plan, huh?

I am trying to keep my faith and believe that everything will work out.  It always does, one way or another. 

In the meantime, could you say a few prayers for us?  Or, just pass along any really good drink recipes that you might have.

Mother's Day

Mother’s Day. A day I have both loathed and loved. First, I wanted to give a shout out to all of the “mom’s in waiting” that are still out there. Your time will come. I know it’s hard and it seems like it will never happen for you. Just have faith and believe.


I tried to think of a post this year that would encompass everything that I feel about Mother’s Day now. I don’t know if I’ll come up with the right words so instead, I’ll just give examples of the things I love:

I love when my son puts his arms around my neck and wants me to lay my head on his chest when I’m tucking him in at night.

I love when my daughter’s eyes get big with excitement when she asks me to tickle her

I love that my son is athletic like his Daddy

I love that my daughter has an artistic side like me

I love to hear my kids laugh and play with each other

I love when my son tells me he is going to dream about me when he goes to sleep

I love when my son tells me he missed me when I pick them up after work

I love when my daughter makes a joke and giggles endlessly

I love that my kids are happy and healthy

I love that my kids like to help me in the kitchen

I love that my kids still like to crawl in my lap for a snuggle

I love that my son is an active, thoughtful and outgoing little boy. I love that my daughter is a smart, sensitive and sometimes shy little girl.


What do I want for Mother’s Day? Not a thing – I already have it.

Nashville Bound

I'm going to see my sister at the end of the month!  They moved in January and I haven't seen her in 3 months!  It will be a short trip (May 31 - June 4) but I'm going solo so I can't complain!  While I would love to have the whole family go, it's just too expensive right now.  And, a 10-hour car ride just isn't appealing for a short trip. 

That will be the longest that I've ever been away from the kids.  EVER.  I hope I handle it OK.  Eeeeek!

Not much else has been going on.  The weather is finally starting to break so we've been trying to get outside as much as possible.  Christopher has taken a new fascination with baseball.  Luckily my husband still had an old batting tee from his softball days so they've been doing batting practice after work and on the weekends.

Between football and baseball, my kid is gonna score a scholarship!  I seriously think he's going to be one of those kids that is just good at sports.  He is connecting with the ball and it goes pretty far!

A few weeks ago, I had one of those "Holy Crap my kids are getting older" moments.  Kendall can spell her name!
She can't quite write it yet but if I ask her to spell it, she'll recite the letters.  In order!

I was completely floored!  I'm no child development guru but that's good, right?!

So, I do have a personal question for you guys.  I suspect that I'm probably older than many of you (turned 43 in April) so I don't know if this is relevant but I'll ask anyway.  Over the last 6 months or so, my skin has been acting like I'm back in my teens.  Oily skin, break outs and just plain gross.  It's not bad enough for prescription medication at this point.  More annoying and a bit embarrassing right now. I'm chalking it up to hormonal changes but since I had the hysterectomy during the twins' birth, I don't have periods any more.  So, I never know where I am in my monthly cycle nor do I know if I'm close to menopause.  

Anyway.  If you have oily skin or if you are also experiencing this, what products and/or regime is working for you?  I just spent $80 at Target purchasing new cleanser, lotion and foundation.  I found a dermatologist website that suggested some good drugstore products so I thought it wouldn't hurt to give them a try.  I was using Oil of Olay (that I've used forever) and a cheap foundation.  I've changed cleansers I don't know how many times - from salicylic acid to exfoliating.  I use acne medications and then it dries out my skin and the cycle begins.  Plus, I have to come to grips with the fact that I also have "aging skin" with wrinkles. 

Today, I purchased Neutrogena Healthy Skin, Anti-Wrinkle Anti-Blemish Clear Skin Cream (for pm),  CeraVe Hydrating Cleanser (for am),  Neutrogena Skin Smoothing Serum, Neutrogena Oil-Free Moisturizer, a Primer for under foundation and Revlon Color Stay Foundation for Combination/Oily Skin.

I should look like Cindy Crawford by next week.