Healing

It's been almost a week since my last post and to be honest, I've been staying away from my blog because I just don't have much to write about.

I feel like I am starting to heal from the bitterness and pain that I felt after hearing the beta results.

So, here's what been happening over the past week. Hold on your hats, it's not very exciting...

We celebrated our 4-year wedding anniversary. We've actually been together almost 20 years so the wedding anniversary doesn't seem very monumental. We went to Ruths Chris for dinner and shared a bottle of wine. That was actually before I got the beta results so I was fairly certain of the result at that point.

I've been throwing myself into work. My job is very cyclical and thankfully, this past week was one of the busy ones. It helped me take my mind off things - atleast until I get home.

I put away all of my ivf medications and wiped anything ivf-related off my calendar. I'm operating off one basic assumption - out of sight, out of mind.

I still had 14 vacation days left so I decided to take this week off. I plan to re-paint and re-decorate my bathroom.

Yesterday, my husband and I took a day trip out to our college campus of West Virginia University. It's about 3 hours from our house and always a beautiful drive through the mountains during the fall.

It was a nice getaway. We got on the road by 8:00 am and arrived in Morgantown by 11. Walked around campus, bought some new sweatshirts, had lunch at one of the restaurants we used to go to and got back on the road around 2:30.

It happened to be Fall Family Weekend so there were lots of parents in town. I was at the cash register buying our shirts and the cashier asked if I had my Parents ID.

Of course, my husband thought that was the funniest thing EVER. Here we were thinking we were going to "blend in" to campus because we don't think we're that old and it turns out we look more like the parents visiting.

There is one thing that surprised both of us. The campus seemed so much smaller to us. It's not a huge campus anyway but everything just seemed small - the student union building, the town, even the restaurant.

It was weird.

I also decided to move forward with our "annual" Halloween party. We started throwing a party about 5 years ago and it just turned into an annual thing, except for last year.

The ectopic had just happened a few weeks before and I didn't know at the time, but I was heading toward emergency surgery that same weekend.

So, we're doing it this year. And, now, I'm kind of excited that I can atleast drink.

I pulled out the costumes that I bought last year and never wore so we'll see how it goes.

I'm going to be a cave woman and my DH is going to be The Hamburgular.

I don't know... he has a thing for McDonald's.

If the pictures are "post-able", I'll share a few afterwards.

I guess that's about it.

Are you still awake?!