A few of you have asked about my sweet Kaly bear.
We had another check up tonight and the good news is continuing! Her creatinine and BUN levels are continuing to drop. Creatinine was down to 2.7 and BUN was down to 29. She's almost normal! We're just going to continue the treatment for another week - because why mess with what's working?
Thanks to everyone for your kind thoughts and prayers for my little doggy.
Not really any other news to report. I've realized over the last 4 days that I definitely have a different perspective with this transfer.
When we started the cycle, I sort of thought of it like a freebie. We had 3 embryos left and we had to do something with them so why not give it a shot? It was still covered by my insurance and it was less stress with minimal medications (really?).
I keep another journal where I share my more personal feelings and I was reading back on the last (my first) cycle. I was like this little innocent girl who was so convinced it was going to work.
And, well, OK. I also got a little addicted to HPTs.
But, let's not dwell on that.
I mean, we put back 2 perfect blastocysts and
my uterus looked good. Why wouldn't it work?
Duh!
And then, I still had the ectopic in my head. I had JUST gotten pregnant for crying out loud so of course it would work!
Double Duh!
It's no wonder I was so upset.
With this cycle, I entered it thinking that it wouldn't work. I guess I'd rather be surprised than disappointed.
Plus, the success rate on a frozen cycle is about 10% less than a fresh.
Am I still anxious to find out the result?
ABSOLUTELY!
Am I going to be devastated if it's negative?
No, I don't think I will be.
All I can think of is the Doritos slogan.
"We'll make more".
I've already decided that we'd go right into another fresh cycle.
At work this week, I took something called a StrengthsFinder test. It identified my Top 5 strengths so I can continue to leverage them in my personal and work life.
One of my strengths was Self-Assurance. It means I make decisions with no regrets and always feel confident in my decisions. It also means I don't get knocked down easily.
And, I think that's true.
I'm a fighter and I don't react well to "No".
We'll keep trying until we run out of money or the doctor says she can't help us anymore.
And, in my best Forrest Gump impression...
"That's all I have to say about that".
3 comments:
Wow! What great perspective you have too!You are also motivational did you know that?
Thanks for the kind comments on my blog. The pain gets easier as the days pass.
You are so right. I feel the same about NEVER giving up, NOT MATTER WHAT. I am ALSO right there with ya on cycle #1. I was so naive to just assume that it would work. Then with our FET I never even imagined it would work. I looked at it the same as you, and when it did fail... we moved right along and onto fresh cycle #2. Crossing my fingers for you that it does work and you do get a fantastic surprise.
Very good news on Kaly. So delighted she's continuing to improve. Glad your skills were able to help bring her back to the point she's at now. I'm sure she appreciate all your loving efforts.
I've realized from the beginning that you have a great & humorous attitude toward life in general. I know some things are never easy, but sometimes we just have to pick ourselves up, dust off, and re-face the challenges head on. Because, in reality, what are the alternatives.
I sincerely hope you get a huge surprise!!
All the best,
Anna
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